If you’ve been following this trainwreck of a story, Raquel has spoken!

In a statement shared with Entertainment Tonight, the reality star began with “I want to apologize for my actions and my choices foremost to Ariana, and to my friends and the fans so invested in our relationships.”

“There is no excuse, I am not a victim and I must own my actions and I deeply regret hurting Ariana,” she said. “I am reflecting on my choices, speaking to a counselor and I am learning things about myself such as my patterns of codependency and addiction to being and feeling loved. I have sought emotional validation through intimate connections that are not healthy without regard for my own well-being, sometimes negatively affecting others and often prioritizing the intimate connection over my friendships.”

Leviss said she is “taking steps to understand my behavior and make healthier choices.”

Last week, Ariana Madix, Tom Sandoval’s long-term girlfriend and castmate, discovered the affair.